The Mourning Thoughts

    Here we are, floating around in the middle of the sea, looking for hope and plenty of fish to eat for continuously living my life. for a better upgrade that I prepare. But there's a problem that always burdens me a lot, the one who never lets me sit and talk to a mermaid. 

    There's plenty of mermaids that are already here when I start my sailing; some of them can make me feel better for who I was, and some others just pass by, giving me reminiscing memories. 

    After a quite journey, I found an island, and there's a beautiful-looking princess. She was so fun and interesting. She helped me a lot with a good working job; she took care of me, she laughed with me, we had a good time together. so I decided to be with her for a long time.

    But after I continue my sailing together with her. I start losing my mermaid friends. I think it's because I can no longer have a good time with them because I spent more time with this princess. Some other mermaids are staying with me, companying me with all my problems that I'm going to face in my journey of sailing. My loss of keeping them is because this princess keeps thinking that they are gonna take me away with them. She always feels jealous about our friendship. She thinks that my world is supposed to be everything about her. She thinks that she doesn't have my attention enough, and every time I spend my time with my mermaid, she gets so cranky and moody, and everything she sees is only the bad side. Even worse, she is ruining a thousand-year friendship between a man and mermaid.

    This paragraph is for you, princess. At the end of my sailing, I will find the best island for me to live my best life. I will make my dream environment for me and my wife and my kids. A beautiful place where we can talk, relaxing, stressing together, laughing, and spend my life until the death comes. On this island, I only focus on my family and no longer can spend my time with those mermaids. It means if you're worth enough for me to take to the island, which is my last stop, then I'm totally yours. You can get jealous for everything after we arrive at the island.

    I just want all these sailing days to be spent focusing on what I love and already have. Since I'm still fishing for supplies and looking for bigger fish, I don't want to have some problem with this cranky stuff. Do what you want and I do what I want. We take care of each other without bothering about what we have as long as we don't harm each other.